Tomorrow’s my birthday. Today my 28th year comes to a close. I have so much to be thankful for and so much has happened in just this year that I almost can’t be sad about what has culminated in my life thus far. However, I am human; a normal person just like everyone else. I’m not perfect and there is much I can still improve on, and I’m working towards improvement everyday.
Before I concentrate on what could use a little improvement, let me recall everything great; everything that is amazing the way it is. This January, I proposed to Stacey, the love of my life. The past five years with her have been the best of my life. I can not thank her enough for what she has done for me. She continues to believe in me, support me and guide me. In most ways, she has singlehandedly shaped what has become the best version of me.
Before Stacey, I was a mess. I felt that I had little direction with no real future in sight. As soon as she graced me with her presence, I almost instantly wanted to be a better person. She has introduced me to things that I would never experience on my own. Only she was able to break down my walls. Over time, we both have grown together, revealed our flaws to each other and showed our vulnerable sides to one another. We learned to trust eachother; grew to love each other. Stacey is not perfect and I would not have her any other way. Can next August come already so I can marry her?!
I admire her strength and her being able to stand on her own. Her optimism and pride carries her through the greatest ordeals then miraculously turns them into opportunity. In my 28, soon to be 29 years in this world, I have received no greater gift than my fiancee. I can never repay her for all she has done for me. I am happier because of her. I AM HAPPY BECAUSE OF STACEY.
Outside of that, the past year has seen much change. I changed my career path from Engineering to Accounting; lost a few friends and made a few; and also broke a few bad habits. As the saying goes, “hindsight is always 20/20.” I’ve always been aware of my wanting to help others, but in recent years leading up to today, I have learned that I can’t please everyone and too much selflessness can hurt me.
This carries over to my personal life as well, where although it has been painfully obvious, I am learning to do what’s best for my happiness, health and sanity. That I said, I am fully committed to contributing to this world and helping it become a better place. This year has taught me how to lead by example; to do what’s best for myself and those I care for.
This new found optimism has rubbed off on a couple of people and I couldn’t be happier for them. My best friend Marco, has decided to continue his education and finally get his degree. He told me that he looked up to me and I told him I couldn’t be more proud of him. He moved down to Los Angeles a few days ago and to be honest, I wish he was still here. I know it’s a bit selfish, but it hurts to not be able to see a close family member whenever you want anymore. But I’m happy he’s pursuing what he wants in life and it’s not my place to hold him back. Marco, if you’re reading this, you’ll always be my brother, no matter what. I’m proud of you.
My family deserves endless thanks from me as they have been there for me since day one. My parents, grandparents and sister are really the only family I have and I’m learning to appreciate the more everyday. I don’t deserve even a fraction of the good fortune my family deserves. I grown to truly care for my family more than ever, I will continue, to the best of my ability to ensure a great life for them. I love my family, and they also deserve the best that I can give.
28 has also gotten me to get off my butt and become a healthier person. It inspired me to create this blog, to help document my progress and gather my thoughts, to remind me why things could be better. I am thankful for 28 because it pushed me. I know that good things are coming, even when times get tough. I also hope to do good more often, fix, or even discard broken relationships and make amends with whomever I hurt. These are some of the many improvements I’m making for myself. Here’s to 29 being another great addition to my life.